monster!!

Lately, I've been pretty pathetic to the people I love the most. I just laughed when I thought about it, because I couldn't believe myself. I know I'm not like this but I let some monster become part of me and I don't like it at all. I just find myself alone, disappointed, dissatisfied and looking prideful. Am I the only one who becomes this way when life becomes busy and there's no time to think, or breathe!? Why is that til someone is hurt, you realize it?