just breathe

A slight bit of miscommunication between him and I this morning. My patience has been low all week. I hung up on him thinking, "I just ruined my day"... But then it turned out to be an...Alright-day, between him and I. His midterms are tomorrow and was stressed out. "Its doable", he said. I always had confidence that he could do whatever he put his mind to. I believed in him and and believed in me. A later conversation took on like nothing ever happened that early morning. He motivated me about furthering my education which I am recently sad about being my situation with work and money. "I don't make enough", I told him. California is demanding! And my co-worker once said "californians will work til they die, just to survive!" If anything, I'd move somewhere else to make a better living. But I couldn't live without most things, people here. Born and raised here in la, it would be hard to let go of it all.

Before work, I cleaned up my room, took the trash out, organized some papers, boxes, shoes, dvds, etc. It was clean, my mind of clear and I lit a candle that I missed dearly. I remembered the scent and it brought back some memories. It mainly reminded me of last winter. I also found the receipt I scrambled to look for the day before. I wanted to return a product I didn't mean to get. When I found the receipt, I realized that I have been charged twice for that one product!! So things do happen for a reason... I rushed to that store and went straight to customer service and wanted a complete refund for the 2 I was charged. It took about...30+ mins for this to be handled. They had security, store manager and approval from some person to get all my 60 + back. Got that settled and went back home.

Soon after, I gotta get ready for work. Out the door, back to the office. I had an admission to do and a family to deal with for the rest of the night. "Ay nako"...

---after work--
I got home around 11:45 pm and everyone was asleep. I kept thinking of everyone in my family and what kind of conversations I had with each today. Any pleasin ones? Some but most made me sad and wished those conversations went more smoothly. I was tired and didn't really think of what the other would feel. All I'm saying is, they could've been better, more meaningful, more thoughtful. I'm working on it.

I warmed up a slice of cheese pizza and hot chocolate. My room is clean, My boyfriend is resting, my dog loves me, he won't stop kissing me, I feel healthy, I feel comfy in my bed. I'm okay, everythings going to be okay...