cupcakes + hot dogs

I woke up thinking about, nothing but cupcakes.
I opened my book of "cupcakes" my sister had gave me earlier in the year and went through some recipes for new cupcakes to make. Caramel cupcakes caught my eye. Ingredients: butter, brown sugar, milk, sugar(2 cups?) that's a lot of sugar i thought...

This early morning, david got a hold of me and asked if i wanted to get Pinks later tonight. I couldnt think of anything else but how cold it was this morning and couldnt bare the thought of how much colder it would be later tonight. But i still made the decision to stand in line later and get a hotdog.

My head started to ache thinking of how much i needed cupcakes. This is a true story. I was having "cupcake withdrawals" or maybe i needed sugar, sugar and more sugar. I drove to the store and picked up pre-made cupcakes, mini ones. Refused to bake some and just decided to make the caramel frosting. In other words, try to. I got home, here i am. I had my ingredients and my mini-premade cupcakes. I was determined. Prepare my ingredients.

Medium fire it said.

Butter first, then brown sugar.

"stir vigorously until boil"

*stir *stir. boiling now.

I turn off the fire, cool down for 30 mins. *wait....wait.

The 30 minutes pass and i put the 2 whole cups of sugar.

Mix..mix.

Back to the fire.

hmm..the consistency doesnt look like caramel.

I taste..*oof, this tastes like buttery sugar :(

i became sad because this was not my first time tryin to make homemade caramel. I gave up and just put it on top of the mini cupcakes, topped them with sliced almonds and there...i had 24 buttery-sugary mini-cupcakes. I tried one and was bouncing off the walls. It had too much sugar. i failed at my caramel cupcakes...

While the cupcakes were resting from my abuse, I had some blueberry bread baking in the oven. Not from scratch. I bought a box that had a can of blueberries inside! "whoa"-my reaction opening the box.

My sister Mariedet is upset with my today. She hasnt said a word to me or laughed at any of my jokes...

Later that night, i was on the phone. Short conversation with him. I stopped the phone call to spend time with mom since i haven't lately. I sat in the kitchen while she made dinner. I am always amazing how she can taste-test boiling hot soup with her bare mouth! I couldnt do that. "how do you do that!?" i asked.

She then tried my caramel cupcakes. Takes one bite, laughs and says,

"this is not how you make caramel, haha"

"i know. i will never know how to"

"i ll teach you", she says.

David soon got me and we headed out to Pinks. It was about to be 10pm. The line wasn't that bad. It hasn't been the last 2 times i went. While in line, we struggle to figure out which hot dog we want. "the america the beautiful?" "lord of the rings dog?" and talked about how its the same people working there everytime we go. Same people all these years. Very welcoming and kind. I always leave a good tip for them. During our late snack, david talked about movie screenings and earthquakes...first aid kids n stuff. Movie screenings like Valentines Day and quotes from the movie. He loved the movie as much as me. I can't wait til it comes out on dvd. All around us, tourists. Taking pictures, buying t-shirts, enjoying their hot dog. It's always amusing and cool to see. I still feel like a tourist when i visit. Half the time i forgot its "cash only". Tonight, i didnt forget. and I took a "baja" dog to go for my sister. It was a chill night.

Missing him has been on a high lately. My anticipation to see him, grows everyday...