2009: "looking in" me.

You look at me and see the girl.Who lives inside the golden world.But don't believe.That's all there is to see.You'll never know the real me.She smiles through a thousand tears.And harbours adolescent fears.She dreams of all,That she can never be. She wades in insecurity.And hides herself inside of me.Don't say she takes it all for granted, I'm well aware of all I have. Don't think that I am disenchanted. Please understand. It seems as though I've always been. Somebody outside looking in. Well, here I am for all of them to bleed. But they can't take my heart from me. And they can't bring me to my knees. They'll never know the real me.

she is serious

My mom just called those fishes that clean your tank "janitor fish" which I think is an algae fish. hahah

public enemies

John Dillinger: What would you do if you could do anything in the
world?
Billie Frechette: I dont know; maybe go dancing with you again.
John Dillinger: All right; if thats what you want, well go into
Chicago tonight, have dinner and go dancing.
Billie Frechette: [laughing] Johnnie; you cant go into Chicago!
John Dillinger: Why not? I can go there to rob banks; I can go there
to go dancing with my girl.

case of the "tuesdays"

So everyone who knows me well already knows that I hate tuesdays. Its the start to my 4 day work week. Today I felt dissatisfied with pretty much everything in my life. Now remember, I said "today". Just today, I don't feel like this everyday. I haven't been eating right like I mentioned yesterday. Mentally and physically. Well I did eat some jellyfish last night...took 1000mg of vitamin c for my sniffies to go away. So as for todays disatifying events, convos and current situations? I will get over it and see a postive side sooner or later. Now lemme finish my costco pizza...

shopping day 2

Started off the day..usual, I'm hungry. As the day goes on, I actually forget that I am, thinking of all the events of the day...I youtubed my favorite christmas song and listened and sang along of course haha. the christmas is up but stood alone without one ornament. I found out we have misplaced all ornaments so mom ran to the store after work for just a few new decorations. She wasn't sure what color this year but eventually came out with ..red. A very red, red. Hannah and I scrambled to the mall. First stop disney store. Buy 1 get 1 free! And.. On anything. Came out havin purchased 3 items. Next, aldo, returning a purse I was convinced buying the day before. Crystal wanted 80 dollar boots instead..Now Macy's. Beloved Macy's. Again betsey johnson caught my eye. Sasha fierce I described her jewelry while sale representative bugged me to apply for a card to get 15% off my purchase. I passed but still got the charm bracelet for jen dearest. And another gift down frm that store as well.oh yes, I am hungry and thirsty..walk walk walk, I forget again that I am hungry. Its 3 and I've been feeding on hershey's kisses all morning. Back to eagle rock, the gc for c, skipping the assasin's creed purchase, savin me 40$! Got n's gift too. 2 more gifts outta tha way. That creep will never stop bothering my sister and I at target. We even have a code name for him. "The nutcracker" he looks like one in his uniform! Hungry came back and wasn't going anywhere. Grabbed a lemonade, opened and drank. Organic mac n cheese for me and a salted pretzel for her. The lady askin for our order forgot our drinks, rushing to get off work. She apologized and said I didn't hear u say Icee so I didn't charge u. She brought the mango smoothie tho...rescued the lil sis frm school and headed home. Still super tired frm last night, I lay flat on the couch and watched edward scissor hands. I giggled everytime he had a line in the movie. Sounds always so innocent and cute. Didn't get to finish the movie , because I had to head out. C's birthday dinner in monterey park. Happy family restaurant, a veggie lover's haven. Fantastic food. So stokd to see my jenjen and met her super awesome friend, who I adore already:) it was a monday so we didn't really do anything after but its always nice to do something other than my usual daily schedule, or life whatever u wanna call it. Put my boyfriend I speaker phone while I drove home. Made it safe home, I'm not done shopping! Online time. Fredflare.com and forever21.com. 2 more gifts down. Well, I still haven't done my laundry or taken out the trash so there are some things I have been procrastinating about. I will eventually get those outta the way tmrw:( sending out his lil package to texas tomorrow and working at 3pm. Yoosh tuesday for me. The victoria's secret show will be airing tonight, I will miss it but its ok. It doesn't consist of adriana lima and miranda kerr's hair gone bad. I saw recent photos of the show and its not as appealing and sexy as last year. Therefore I am not m.I.a. I can't believe its december again...